have you ever thought you are living in a movie

Have you ever felt that you were living in a movie….

Right now I am 32 years old and I feel like I am living in the “office space” and ” this is 40″.   Is this normal????

Sorry for the confession, let me rewind

I ( by I, I mean we) got the kids to bed on time and started watching “The Is 40” ,  and have been laughing my (excuse my language) Ass off.  Not because it is funny ( cause it is, funny that is)  but because so much of the two main characters relationships seems to be mirroring ours.  which is funny and scary as I am only 32 ( not even 40 yet) and this seems to be what we have to look forward to.  but with out the money….

anyway….. between my everyday working life seeming to be like waking up into the movie “office Space” ( a little less at this job than my last job).  the only difference is we don’t have the fax machine from hell that we want to break, its a big copier that can’t seem to do its job ( I hate this big machine,and would like to take it to an open field and smash it with my baseball bat)  and after work I seem to be walking into the movie “this is 40″….. ( minus the teenage problems and the fact that I am not even in my 40s)

oh my life…. its complicated and I love it. ( problems and all,  I know I have to kept reminding myself of this, but I wouldn’t change it)

okay I think I should go!  have a good night to all.

Question, just one little question

I just have one question,  just one.

How does one know what they want to be?  I mean really, How does someone know what they want to do for a living?

I am stuck, I have no clue,  and I guess a little lost.

I know I can’t do poo, and vomit,  or anything like that.

I don’t know if I want a conventional or non conventional job.  or where I want to work.  How can you tell, granted I have been getting a lot of “well do something you like” but I really don’t think I can get paid to read books, play online or take care of my kids.  So, as you can see I am a little lost.

And if you thought process is to think of something else, well that’s what I have been trying to do.  the reality is, that I just can’t take any job,  as I have a family to support and I really don’t want to be on welfare my whole life.  ( actually I would like to be off of it as soon as possible)

I have made some goals, things that I would like to do.  One is to move out of AZ, maybe WA, OR or CA.  I would love to travel, even find a job that would allow me to travel. But at the same time, I don’t want to miss out on any part of my kids life.

Here I am, a little lost and trying to find my way….. and try to figure out what my career path should be.  What my dream job is?

Friday blog

Happy Friday to all

Yes it’s the weekend already. And I just finished my first full week at my new job, and yes there were bumps in the road this week, especially today.

To start… I got up late today, my alarm never went off (or if you ask my fiancé, it went off but I didn’t get up, either way I was late.  I obviously missed my bus, so he was kind enough to take me to work today (awesome he is, even though he was not happy about it), which meant I was not late (on time, yay! to him).

Once I got to work I immediately started to file,  as I had nothing to do… yep I filed and filed and filed,  from 8am till about 10am, in which I was done filing and asked the office manager for some work,  in which she was nice enough to give me some more work…. FILING! Yep I filed some more. (13 years of accounting and I am filing, yay me!).  Regardless I am happy to have some work, so I started filing again, until 12pm rolled around and guess what actually work came in, I was able to do a deposit.  And this is where it gets fun.

By fun I mean went downhill, something so easy and should have taken about 30 mins to do, took over an hour and I felt so stupid.  My hold up….. New system and not paying attention, I was so eager that I messed up.  Yep I blew it.  But I was able to correct my mistakes, with the manager’s help.  She didn’t get mad at all, which was great cause I felt like an ass.  There is nothing like feeling like an ass with your boss watching you.  Yay me, with all these years of accounting knowledge and I am messing up a simple deposit.

But after all that I at least knew that once I pulled my head out of my butt, that I actually knew what I was doing.  So I felt better that in the future I could do it just fine.  I guess sometimes you have to figure out how not to do something in order to know how to do something.  Lesson learned.

The rest of my day went okay, did more filing, took some initiative (which my bosses seemed to like, but the reality was I was bored and wanted some more to do). And then some deals came through, I was able to prep 1/2 but, I found errors so I get to fix them, and by fix I mean my boss will show me what to do so in the future I will know what to do.  And then the main boss lady said hey you all did good today its 4 pm now go home and enjoy yourselves.  So I did!

In all it was an okay day, and I guess a day for me is never complete without feeling like an ass by the end of it, since that happened already today the rest of my day should be good.

this week should be good,  I am going to try to actually cook or bake something from scratch, in short  wait for my epic fail blog on Saturday when I tell you the disaster that happened.

Well it’s time to go, Happy Friday (or what’s left of it) to all.

 

a week already….

Well tomorrow will be officially one week from my first day at my new job, and I feel…. good but still a fish out of water.

Almost everyone i know has asked me ” how do you  like the new job” ,  and its good and everyone is so nice, and generally seem to like working there and like each other. It is just that,  I don’t have any job duties and I have been mostly filing…. so I don’t really have a place yet.  This kinda bothers me as I am used to having, well having a function that runs with the company and I feel a little useless.  I am hoping that tomorrow I will get more work as some responsibilities as I am running out of filing to do.

on a side note,  I am actually hoping to succeed at this job and become something and if not, then actually learn something I can take to my forever job. Also, the longer I am at this job, it makes my old job seem like kids stuff,  in short it really wasn’t real “accounting”,  it was data entry with some a/p and a/r. And I can tell you our bookkeeper ( at the old job) really didn’t do much compared to these girls.  In short I am loving this place more and more. I am so happy I have this opportunity at this place,  and opportunity to actually learn new and different things.

Regardless of where I am planning on being and what my forever job will be, I will be using this time  in order to get somethings in my life worked out and fixed, I guess in short take care of somethings in order for me to move up in the world.

A recap of the week… I believe I am enjoying my self and I think I am like this new stuff, Now only to regain the self-confidence I lost at my old job.

Guess who went to work today……

if you guessed me….. you were corrected!

it was scary and I was nervous and I actually haven’t eaten all day.  I can’t eat…. I am not hungry.  I didn’t expect to start to quickly.

I got a call Wednesday asking me to come in early for orientation ( originally scheduled for Monday). So it was moved to Thursday.

I went to orientation ( in mesa) than went to my new work…. I worked today until 5:30pm.  I was so nervous and I had no idea of what I was doing…. but it was all data entry, so it seemed really easy.  

So it looks like I am employed!….. I just hope my bills can hold off until I get paid…..  

update on job

As I was doing my daily “stay at home mom” stuff,  my cell rang ( I didn’t hear it) and a voice mail was left.  I didn’t even notice as I didn’t expect a call from anyone today, and My family knows to call me on the house phone during the day ( as I have minutes on my cell).

Around 2pm I checked my phone, and then the voice mail.  My possible new job called…. they wanted to move up the orientation from Monday to tomorrow at 10am , Thursday Oct 31st.

I tried to call back to confirm but no one picked up,  I left a messages and will call back first thing at 8am.

So It looks like this is all happening… I can’t believe it.  I am so nervous…. I am preparing everything right now so all I have to do is get up, take a  shower, get dressed ( do make up and hair) and go.  due to the orientation being is mesa,  I will have to leave my house at 830 to get there on time due to rush hour.  so glad I don’t have to go all the way out there every day. …. the actual job is located a lot closer and I can take 1 city bus to get there.  which is great.

back from meeting

I am sure you are all still at the end of your seats wondering what happened.

So here goes,  after an hour drive out there (mesa) I arrived 5 mins late,  I hate being late as i am usually 15 mins early everywhere I go,  Its others that make me late, as my fiance mother showing up 30 mins late to our house, as she offered to watch the kids so they wouldn’t go to daycare.

There I filled out paper work, signed off on a background check and took a drug test.   At first I thought I was going to have to pee in a cup, which just weird’s me out.  but good news I didn’t,  they put this swab thing in your mouth that tastes like “yuck” if “yuck’ was a flavor.

and then I left,  and was told orientation was on Monday.

So i am employed pending results of a back ground check, which should be 100% fine as i had to take several back ground test at my old job ( as we had to be government approved due to us working with government loan)

the background test will be checking my driving record ( which is fine, as I don’t drive so there is no record), criminal background ( never been arrested or even issued a citation, so again fine), checking terrorist list and no fly list ( again, should be 100% okay there, it’s an odd check  but hey who cares) , and of course drug test ( don’t do drugs so again, I am fine there) . I think my credit report might be run,  and yes it sucks right now as I am unemployed, but i would figure a lot of people’s would suck too. ( so I am hoping I will be fine there) . Oh and to make sure i am a citizen too,  a SSN check,  which is fine what ever on that one,  Born and raised in AZ,  so was my dad ( and his dad) and my mom was a military brat ( born in Michigan and raised all over the US and Canada) , So I know I am good there. ( US family born and raised for over 200 years,  I think I am okay on this subject). In Short I can’t see a reason why I wouldn’t pass the back ground check.

I don’t think I have left anything out. But yes I am still nervous and scared ,  but this is something that will be there until I start my new job and get into the swing of things.

So in short it took me 2 hours both ways to be there for 15 mins (or so) .  We will be driving out there again on Monday for orientation that states at 9am.

Now to fine child care!

 

Job news and its come finally – some good news

I believe part 1 of my goals may be completed.   I was offered the job today.  I got the call at 5:35pm,  I was offered the job,  i am accepting right now,  and hope that I will be approved my upper management.

I will find out more next week and let you know.  I am happy about this, and a little disappointed to.  it hit me today that I am taking a pay cut,  going from 35k a year to 24960.00,  so it’s a pretty big cut.  It’s a lot to take in and I am re arranging my finances right now to make this work.  The sad part about this, is because it’s a pretty big hit, I will be on government assistance a little longer,  but this is following my goals pretty well.

as stated in my goals, I planned on getting a new job,  and that i might have to go through 2 jobs, this can be a stepping stone to the dream job.

This is a good thing,  Lets just hope the upper management approve me and if so I could start the next week.  I am very thankful for this.

Picture(s) of the day – missing a Vacation

 

In June ( prior to being laid off) my family took our first vacation together,  and we loved it.  for our kids being as young as they are, they did great on the ride up and back.  ( from AZ to CA),  these pics were taken in Ventura or Oxnard,CA.  And to be honest,  if we were to ever move to CA( or could ever afford, is the real statement) , these would be the spot.

It was the most relaxed I had been in a while,  it was peaceful and fun.

I would love to find a job that made me happy and provided me the peace that I had on that vacation,  I am not sure if one even out there but one can dream I guess.

I miss that vacation and wish I never came back.  I want to go back on vacation.

Here’s to dreaming

picture of the day – enchantment

 

This is Scotland ( at least that is what the picture says).  and if so Oh my,  its is amazing , Looking at this is like watching a fairy tale.  No wonder they filmed Potter here.

Right now looking at pictures like this is my escape, almost like a vacation I can’t afford to go on.  One can dream ! I would say i am adding this on my list of places to visit but it was already on there as Scotland and England share the same land.

To bad i can get paid to visit place like this,  That would be an awesome job!