update on job

As I was doing my daily “stay at home mom” stuff,  my cell rang ( I didn’t hear it) and a voice mail was left.  I didn’t even notice as I didn’t expect a call from anyone today, and My family knows to call me on the house phone during the day ( as I have minutes on my cell).

Around 2pm I checked my phone, and then the voice mail.  My possible new job called…. they wanted to move up the orientation from Monday to tomorrow at 10am , Thursday Oct 31st.

I tried to call back to confirm but no one picked up,  I left a messages and will call back first thing at 8am.

So It looks like this is all happening… I can’t believe it.  I am so nervous…. I am preparing everything right now so all I have to do is get up, take a  shower, get dressed ( do make up and hair) and go.  due to the orientation being is mesa,  I will have to leave my house at 830 to get there on time due to rush hour.  so glad I don’t have to go all the way out there every day. …. the actual job is located a lot closer and I can take 1 city bus to get there.  which is great.

The Dream Job – is it real? and if so what is it?

For some time (a lot since I lost my job), I have been dreaming and thinking of what a dream job is, for me.  What type of job is it that I really want?  What is it that I am looking for?  

I don’t know what “it” is yet, but I have been thinking about it so much that it has almost become an obsession.  But then again, if you have no job, have tons of time on your hand, and are spending all day chances after kids, what is there to really think about. 

I know what I don’t want and more importantly what I can’t, I can’t do a position in which I am forced to interact with lots of people at once, I don’t want to be the center of the room,  and an introverted type of person, and dealing with people puts me out of my comfort zone.  For example,   I don’t want to be a teacher of any kind, or a guest speaker (not sure what I would be speaking of anyway).  Public display and I don’t go together.  

I know I am not manager material, as I would be taken advantage of, all the employees would be calling out sick, leaving early or coming in late.  Not good with authority and I am a push over. 

I love the outdoors but not during allergy season.  In addition, AZ is too hot for outdoors, granted it’s pretty right now, but nothing is nice about being out side in 110 + temperature.  Therefore, those jobs are out of the question.  

Also, I can’t sale; goes back to the public display and push over part.  Can’t sell anything if I am so nervous that I can’t talk and if I am such a push over.  I would probably be fired from a sales job because I would give the product away at no charge, as the person I’d be selling to would be a better negotiator than me.  It’s just a fact.  

Not sure, what type of job would be good for an introverted push over like me can do.  I am okay with phones and interactions one on one, good with the computer and typing, but bad with grammar and spelling.  I mean really, verb what’s that, Noun who needs them, wait what there’s a period too, I think you get the point, was that to passive?  (Hell the spell and grammar check on my computer hates me.  And wants a vacation after me typing this up)   

So what type of job should I go after? 

Any ideas, any?  Because I am at a loss

 

stay at home mom blues

Now that I am a “stay at home mom” (looking for a job) I find that my pretty went away, it seems to be on vacation.

I don’t get up in a rush, my days no longer consist of getting up, and getting dressed up.  I deal with dirty diapers, spills, messes, and accidents.  I take a shower when I get a chance, usually after my children are already cleaned up and when I am done, I put on sweats, and a t-shirt.  I might not even really brush my hair, as it’s just going to go up in pony anyway. I don’t even got to the bathroom by myself anymore, it feels more like a family event.

My time is spent cleaning up and dressing up my kids, as if I am their personal servant, which I think I am.  It’s like “Cinderella, minus the evil step mom and stepsister.  I do get hugs and kisses but I also get fits and throwing.  In addition, I will tell you for being 2 years old my son has one hell of an aim, and sad to say that aim happens to be my head or his sisters) I would love to dress up and make myself pretty, but I just don’t have the energy to start.

I have the mama blues,