Interview completed!

My interview was completed,  I think it went good , but I never really know.

wish me luck , I need it

16 weeks and 3 days : question and honestly

its been 115 days or 16 weeks and 3 days since i lost my job,  honestly tell me,  is there something wrong with me that i haven’t found a job by now.

I lost my job on July 10 and its now October 25,   is this normal to go this long without a job,  or is it me,  am i doing something wrong?

I mean really, if I gave birth, my maternity leave would be completed by now and I would have returned back to work. But here it is over 3 months later, ( over 16 weeks) and still no job.

how much longer is this going to take…….Oh god please bring me a job or present me with a path…. i am not sure how much longer i can take this all.

 

The Dream Job – is it real? and if so what is it?

For some time (a lot since I lost my job), I have been dreaming and thinking of what a dream job is, for me.  What type of job is it that I really want?  What is it that I am looking for?  

I don’t know what “it” is yet, but I have been thinking about it so much that it has almost become an obsession.  But then again, if you have no job, have tons of time on your hand, and are spending all day chances after kids, what is there to really think about. 

I know what I don’t want and more importantly what I can’t, I can’t do a position in which I am forced to interact with lots of people at once, I don’t want to be the center of the room,  and an introverted type of person, and dealing with people puts me out of my comfort zone.  For example,   I don’t want to be a teacher of any kind, or a guest speaker (not sure what I would be speaking of anyway).  Public display and I don’t go together.  

I know I am not manager material, as I would be taken advantage of, all the employees would be calling out sick, leaving early or coming in late.  Not good with authority and I am a push over. 

I love the outdoors but not during allergy season.  In addition, AZ is too hot for outdoors, granted it’s pretty right now, but nothing is nice about being out side in 110 + temperature.  Therefore, those jobs are out of the question.  

Also, I can’t sale; goes back to the public display and push over part.  Can’t sell anything if I am so nervous that I can’t talk and if I am such a push over.  I would probably be fired from a sales job because I would give the product away at no charge, as the person I’d be selling to would be a better negotiator than me.  It’s just a fact.  

Not sure, what type of job would be good for an introverted push over like me can do.  I am okay with phones and interactions one on one, good with the computer and typing, but bad with grammar and spelling.  I mean really, verb what’s that, Noun who needs them, wait what there’s a period too, I think you get the point, was that to passive?  (Hell the spell and grammar check on my computer hates me.  And wants a vacation after me typing this up)   

So what type of job should I go after? 

Any ideas, any?  Because I am at a loss

 

Job search day 10 and 11 ( week 2) Wed and Thurs, Looking forward to Friday.

Good news for all ( well good news for me that I am sharing with you), I have an interview (just in case you didn’t read my prior post, I have an interview.  I am so nervous and trying to calm myself.  I am trying to prep for the interview but I have a lot of family issues at this time.

My interview is set for 10am tomorrow, I will be there at 9:45am (15 mins early), and I am prepping out my cloths right now.  A golden tan top and black slacks (both from the New York store) I will have to get up at 7am to get ready.

Wednesday and today ( Thursday) was rough in the job market,  I did feel out a few and believe it or not ,  I have received a total of 3 calls, but 2 I have to return tomorrow, as they called after 4 pm and I was at a play date with my son and didn’t hear the phone ( I know stupid)

The two calls I got: one wants to set up and interview, the second, a place I applied and interviewed for different position, with a possible job offering for another.  I am nervous about that one.  I am so hoping good things.  I would love for this part of the journey to be over.  I would love to be able to make a mortgage payment and pay all my bills, Oh good things I hope!

Regardless back to the job search (until I have a job)

My jobs that I applied for (Wed and Thurs) are as follows:

Careerbuilder.com 

General Accounting, A/P & A/R at Confidential

Office Positions Available – North Scottsdale

craigslist.com (both were for today)

Front Office (position)

Receptionist/Front Desk (Glendale) ‏

WISH ME LUCK!  In addition, if you have any suggestions or pointers, don’t keep them to yourself, please share!  Trust me; I am so open to any idea that will land me the job.  Also, if you are in Phoenix ( Maricopa county) and/or know of any openings ( or ideas of where to apply to) in the phoenix area please feel free to share. (I am all ears, and eager)

Day 3 and 4 of Week 1 revamp weight loss and health challenge.

Oh my weight and health challenge, is well difficult in every way possible.  Have two kids and chancing after them, blows most goals out of the water,  most of the time I forget to eat, and than when I am eating I am rushing or sharing my food.

I missed breakfast both days (Wednesday and Thursday) and my snacks both days ( my kids didn’t miss though, I can at least get them fed) .  I did eat lunch but after 1 pm,  I shoved a chicken breast sandwich on Wednesday and on Thursday I made me my son’s Mickey mouse chicken nuggets ( 7 ) down my throat. I don’t even remember tasting either of them but i know I shared both with my kids,

do to all the running around and family drama I haven’t really exercised,  I did walk both days for 30 mins plus, but that only prevents weight from packing on.

for dinner I had chicken breast. again with mashed potatoes ( again shared with my kids, as my plate belongs to them too, even though a plate was made for them) and today Thursday -If you guess chicken again, you are right,  this time with french fries ( and yes shared with kids again)

I know tomorrow is going to be rough,  I have a job interview at 10am, than off to the AZ job program for another interview ( this time its a job fair) and a meeting with the job counselor.  after that my fiance has a doctor’s appointment and then we get to go home and I get to get ready for bonko ( first time going)

So no plans for tomorrow,  But I will let you know if things change, I wish I had someone to help manage my time and help me complete this part of my life I wish I was Oprah ( without all the responsibilities)  and had a life coach to help me along.  That’s what I need a life coach.

 

Picture(s) of the day – missing a Vacation

 

In June ( prior to being laid off) my family took our first vacation together,  and we loved it.  for our kids being as young as they are, they did great on the ride up and back.  ( from AZ to CA),  these pics were taken in Ventura or Oxnard,CA.  And to be honest,  if we were to ever move to CA( or could ever afford, is the real statement) , these would be the spot.

It was the most relaxed I had been in a while,  it was peaceful and fun.

I would love to find a job that made me happy and provided me the peace that I had on that vacation,  I am not sure if one even out there but one can dream I guess.

I miss that vacation and wish I never came back.  I want to go back on vacation.

Here’s to dreaming