weight loss disappointment

I find the whole weight loss process to be full of disappointment.

I hate dieting and refuse to do it.  If you are thinking that I hate to exercise too, you are actually wrong.  I love to walk, I love being active.   I walk around 30 mins or more each night (which is probably why I don’t why more).  If I had more time I would actually exercise more.  But I find having two kids makes it difficult as they are always right there,  each kids on one side of the legs holding on,  preventing me from doing anything,  it’s like a cruel game they play on me.

Instead of dieting and exercising, I want to do something different.  I want to change the way I eat,  what I eat and the way I live.  I want to change my life style. If I just diet than all I am ever doing is dieting, and my weight will always go up and down. I don’t want to be going through this my whole life, I want to be healthy, and not have to worry about my weight.

I am going to go see a dietitian to help make meal plans and talk about the issues I am having.  As when you spend your whole life throwing carbs and fat down your throat your body has a tendency to crave these types of foods, and it turns into a type of addiction, leads which leads to failure. The only way to succeed is to break the addiction

The whole weight loss experience is tough, it’s hard to be overweight and look at yourself this way, but it seems even harder to actually do something about it.  Its feels like everything around us to made to encourage us to get fatter, the worse we feel the fatter we seem to get and the harder it is to lose, It’s an ugly circle.

It’s sad but true.  I hope that this will help.

day 3 of my restart week

As i reach day 3 of my restart week, I am still struggling with staying positive.

I am now 3 months into unemployment and I am struggling to find a job.  ( that I can commute to)

I am having problems staying on any type of work out, weight loss , eating correctly regiment.  I think is do to the large about of stress I am under. I have no eaten through almost all my money.  I have made the decisions not to pay mortgage this month as i don’t have enough money for all the bills and mortgage.  I know that if I don’t have a job my the end of this week or beginning of this week i will not be able to afford any of the bills next month.

But the surprising thing is that even with all this stress i am still happier now than I was when I was working for my last job.

Last night i was talking to one of my former coworkers and we were talking about “the place” and she was telling me things that were happening and It just made me happier that I no longer work there.  I miss some of my co workers but really i can do with out some of them.  but i don’t miss the company,  I don’t miss working for them.  I wasn’t happy there, I felt used and unappreciated.

I know i am happier that i was,  and i just hope that I can find another job very quickly.  i hope that my dream job is out there and i will find it someday.

 

weight loss goal for comic con

My goal for weight loss is for several reasons,  one reason is that I have a bunch of cloths that i bought prior to my sons birth, and I never really got to wear them and I would like to before I no longer can for age reasons.  And I hate shopping, and being over weight doesn’t make the experience any better.

Another reason i want to loose weight, i want to go to comic con in costume.  that’s right I was to dress up, and they don’t really make costumes for the fluffy like me.  well at least none i would like to see.  I am not wanting to hang it all out,  I just don’t want to have to figure out how to hide it all.

So, comic con seems to be a pretty good goal to hit,  and a pretty good reward for getting in shape and healthier

 

weight loss goal……….back to work

So, I have been a little preoccupied with feeling sorry for my self.  So I haven’t loss any weight but i haven’t gained any other.  Tomorrow I will be measuring my self and I am hoping nothing has gone up.

my weight is one of the hardest things to control, because i enjoy food,  not just any food but carbs.

I am thinking I may need to do another approach to these weight loss stuff.  I have been looking up stuff online, I will keep you posted,  but its not looking good.  I think i need help