well, still feeling the same, yup

I have been having my ups and downs all week.  I have come to the conclusion that this holiday season will be hard, unless I win the lotto.  In short, It will be hard. ( I don’t have good luck, and never win when I play, so the chances of things changing…. slim to none).

I don’t have the answers right now,  and I don’t know what we are going to do.  There is no miracle that will happen in the next 12 days,  It’s just the hard cold true.  It the reality of the situation.  I know I am not the only one who is facing this situation right now.  I know its hard on a lot of us.  But, it doesn’t knowing that doesn’t make it better, and I still fill alone in all of this.

Though I am trying to put on a happy face, and to be honest my smart ass sarcasm helps.  I can’t help it,  It’s like it’s in my DNA.  When things get rough in our family we have a habit of crying and laughing at the bad things,  trying to find some sort of humor in it all.

The humor in this is ………. well, I am not sure.  It’s not funny that we can’t afford much right now, but we do make fun of it.  we joked about giving coal to my step son and telling that santa put him on the naughty list because of his grades,  but he just shock his head…. he knows santa is not real and just told us “whatever” “HAHAH” “I know you guys are just joking” ( imagine that with the teenage boy voice and attitude).

We were thinking about selling some stuff over here,  but we can’t figure out what to sell as we don’t really having anything.

So in short we are not at a cross roads , but at a bridge in which has fallen apart and we are looking for something to fix it with so we can get to the other side, and having a hard time doing it. ( sigh)

oh well, to keep my mind off of it right now,  We are watching “The Hobbit part 1″ ( and secretly wishing that we could afford to go to the theater to see the new one)

No black Friday shopping for me!

No i did not go black Friday shopping,  I actually never go.  I don’t see the point.  Yes there are a few good deals but for me most are not worth the stress of it all.  and to be honest i have found that waiting until the last-minute usually pays off.  as the sales on black Friday can be found again closer to the actual date.  Also In some cases, i can get a better deal during another time of the year.

But more importantly I don’t buy big expensive gifts,  It’s not the money that matters it’s the thought and I don’t believe in going broke for one day.  To me Birthdays are more important that giving gifts on Christmas.

So No black Friday Shopping for me.  I enjoyed today and relaxed and slept in with my kids and went to a book store for a few and then walked home ( to burn off the fatty foods I will be eating tonight)

cloths shopping – second hand style

Happy Sunday to all.  Today I am going cloths shopping,  but not to a regular store.

My new job requires me to dress business causal, which has become a problem for me as, well I don’t have any business casual cloths that fit me.

After having 2 kids in 2 years , I haven’t gone back to my pre prego weight,  I am at 161 and I was at 125, So nothing fits.  But due to my budget or lack of  budget I can’t afford to actually go to a store and buy new cloths, so I am going to try something new and different. I am going to go shopping at a second-hand or used cloths store.

this is my first time shopping at these types of stores so I don’t know really where to go, I went online last night and found some places to try out today.

Wish me luck that I can find something.

weight loss disappointment

I find the whole weight loss process to be full of disappointment.

I hate dieting and refuse to do it.  If you are thinking that I hate to exercise too, you are actually wrong.  I love to walk, I love being active.   I walk around 30 mins or more each night (which is probably why I don’t why more).  If I had more time I would actually exercise more.  But I find having two kids makes it difficult as they are always right there,  each kids on one side of the legs holding on,  preventing me from doing anything,  it’s like a cruel game they play on me.

Instead of dieting and exercising, I want to do something different.  I want to change the way I eat,  what I eat and the way I live.  I want to change my life style. If I just diet than all I am ever doing is dieting, and my weight will always go up and down. I don’t want to be going through this my whole life, I want to be healthy, and not have to worry about my weight.

I am going to go see a dietitian to help make meal plans and talk about the issues I am having.  As when you spend your whole life throwing carbs and fat down your throat your body has a tendency to crave these types of foods, and it turns into a type of addiction, leads which leads to failure. The only way to succeed is to break the addiction

The whole weight loss experience is tough, it’s hard to be overweight and look at yourself this way, but it seems even harder to actually do something about it.  Its feels like everything around us to made to encourage us to get fatter, the worse we feel the fatter we seem to get and the harder it is to lose, It’s an ugly circle.

It’s sad but true.  I hope that this will help.

Groupon, sales and price checking

So,  I signed up for Groupon around 6 months ago,  and to be honest, I have never used it.  I heard through work that Groupon has all these great deals, but over the last 6 months I haven’t noticed any.

I am not sure if it’s just me but it seems like in most cases the deals they offer aren’t deals.  For example on Friday a Groupon came in for picture people the deal was $16.00 for in-studio photo shoot with option of eight photo sheets ($16.00 ).  This deal right here isn’t a deal,  the 8 sheets are for one pose,  is actually not a good deal compared to what they are offering on their website. Right now Picture people is advertising on their website 25 sheets, one pose for $18.00 ,  In short I can get a better deal without Groupon right now.

As of today I really haven’t found any good deals in which I would use Groupon for.  And it makes me wonder if people who are using Groupon are actually researching these deals.

I am a strong believe that you should never buy anything at full price and you should always shop around for the better price.  If you have the ability to wait till it goes on sale (Food doesn’t count) , yet it may take time but i wait and if I can’t get it on sale then it wasn’t meant to be.  That includes my cloths, electronics, movies, music and phones.

Before I buy anything , I always think about 1) the price and 2) where I want to buy it from.  Yes I might be able to get it cheaper from amazon but I would rather pay more for customer service and or to support a local store.

This also goes for my kindle, I have a kindle for reading on the city bus,  I don’t really buy books from amazon but rent them from  my local library.  and when I buy books I try to buy them from my local books stores  (Changing Hands and Thirty Joe’s) or Barnes and Noble ( the last big bookstore).  I would rather pay more money now  to know that these places will be open in 6 months to 6 years  to 60 years than save a few dollars.  Sometimes its worth spending the extra cash to have these places around, than it is to save.

I guess what I am saying is that I  miss you Borders .