Growing up and still waiting on my fairy Godmother…. I think I was lied to

This morning, Disney was playing Cinderella, and I stopped doing what I was doing long enough to see the part where Cinderella is crying after her evil step sisters‘ destroy her dress and the Fairy Godmother appears to say her day and make her into a beautiful ” princess”  and as I watched it dawn on me I was lied to.

I think I watched every Disney princess movie growing up, and i yet to have met my Fairy Godmother to save my day,  or ‘someone’ to fix all my problems or help me out ( no dwarfs, no magical sea witch, no woodlyn creatures, or any fairy godparents).

Damn fairy tales and Disney, leading me on my entire life……..  where’s my happily ever after and big castle. I am waiting!!!!!!!

stay at home mom blues

Now that I am a “stay at home mom” (looking for a job) I find that my pretty went away, it seems to be on vacation.

I don’t get up in a rush, my days no longer consist of getting up, and getting dressed up.  I deal with dirty diapers, spills, messes, and accidents.  I take a shower when I get a chance, usually after my children are already cleaned up and when I am done, I put on sweats, and a t-shirt.  I might not even really brush my hair, as it’s just going to go up in pony anyway. I don’t even got to the bathroom by myself anymore, it feels more like a family event.

My time is spent cleaning up and dressing up my kids, as if I am their personal servant, which I think I am.  It’s like “Cinderella, minus the evil step mom and stepsister.  I do get hugs and kisses but I also get fits and throwing.  In addition, I will tell you for being 2 years old my son has one hell of an aim, and sad to say that aim happens to be my head or his sisters) I would love to dress up and make myself pretty, but I just don’t have the energy to start.

I have the mama blues,