Its me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hello all

I know its been a while,  but I am still here.

I am at ( or around) 137 pounds,  I still have around 30 more pounds to lose .  I know it seems to be a lot,  but when you are short 30 extra pounds is a lot on a little frame. ( but if I was taller, I would be okay – like 5 extra inches, But I am not)

I am trying to get everything in order and its a lot,  a lot of stress.  But I have to do it.  I have to work out a plan with my mortgage company and get caught up on all my bills.  I know it seems like a lot but when you are out of work for around 6 months one does get behind.

Whats new for me you ask,  well we were forced to use our tax money to buy a new vehicle ( by new I mean new to us not new new,  yeah really can’t afford that ).  None of ours are working, but we are trying to get them up in running condition to sell them( as if I don’t need to say it, but I will, we need the money)

I am trying to get organized, its hard but I can’t live the way I am right now.  I am loosing my mind.

On a kid note, my son has moved on to TMNT.  Yes that is right, just in time for the new movie to come out.  So for the past week we have been watching TMNT non stop. and when it’s not on tv he has us going to Youtube to watch videos.  In short now I am fighting with a 3 year old over the laptop.  He seems to think watching TMNT is more important than me doing my homework.  ( I trying to kick that in his butt now so he knows what is important, but a 3 year old doesn’t seem to care)

My little Lady has been sick all weekend long and decided to share with me,  in the form of throwing up all over me.  yeah it was gross and I joined her in the bash right after.  Not because I am now sick with anything,  I just have a weak stomach.  yep, weak very weak.

on a backward note,  and I say this as every time we ( as a family we) move two steps forward ( or in some cases just a step) we seem to move another step backwards.  Well, on Monday my fiance was laid off,  yeah I know it sucks.  We are trying to find him a job but its hard with his schedule.  No one really wants to hire someone who is going to college on Tuesdays and Thursdays.  So its another step backwards on getting caught up on our bills and obligations.

I still haven’t won the lotto ( minus $3.00, but I don’t think that that counts)

and

I am still trying to find the light out of this very long dark tunnel, every time I think i  am find my way out it seems like the tunnel collapses on me.

well that’s life right,  here is hoping to someday to be in a place where we are no longer on welfare and we can go back to being able to support our selves without anyone’s help.  Someday I guess, just not now.

Here is the picture of the month my little babies,  who remind me why i am doing what I am doing (well on a side note,  my Easter pics didn’t happen,  my son fell at daycare and scratched the crap out of his face, nose and chin)